i don't even know where to begin with you. i want more than anything to say that i hate you and that i want nothing to do with you- but i can't. it kills me. but most of all what i do not understand is what happened between us. we were so in love with each other for months but both of us were too scared to do anything about it. instead your solution was to tell me your feelings TWO DAYS before i left for school. how could you do that to me? i sat there crying on the phone while you begged and pleaded with me not to leave for school. it was unfair. it was selfish. then you proceed to mess things up even more by avoiding my phone calls/ims the next day. i guess you can say what devestated me the most was how you never even cared after i left. you never called/texted/imed/facebooked me to see how college was or even just to make sure i was ok. the only possible reason i could think you would do something like this to me was because you were mad. you wanted me to go to iona with you and hated the fact that i was going away to school. how could you honestly expect me to chose a college just to be near you?

my response was to write you a letter. after reading that you knew how much i cared about you and i told you how much you hurt me because you seemed to just not give a shit anymore. i poured my heart out to you. and what do i get back? a text message saying "that was intense."
so FUCK YOU. fuck you for responding to me like that, fuck you for not speaking to me, and the biggest fuck you is for when you decided to im me again in december. i was starting to move on and get on with my life...then you decided to enter it again.

after we become "friends" again you make your fb status "just became friends again with the girl he can't live without having in his life" BULL SHIT. actions speak louder than words...if you mean what you say you should actually try proving it. and STOP trying to me my friend when i'm home. friendship doesn't work like that....it is a year-round thing. and to be honest...i don't even consider you a friend because friends don't hurt friends. and if i listed all the ways you have hurt me i would probably end up writing for hours.

you have changed so much that at times it is difficult to understand why i fell so in love with you. we were so compatiable and it was like we just understood each other on a level no one else did. but you are no longer that person to me. as far as i'm concerned that only realtion i have to you is that i am unfortunate to live 1 minute away from you-leaving me to conclude that all you are to me now is a neighbor. so you know what? you've had 15 months of my life. but thats all you get. you can't have anymore. i'm done with you. i'm done with us.